Five years ago, this past February, I sat in a waiting room with my family and pastor waiting to hear from my mom who had just under gone surgery to remove a mass from one of her ovaries. We were waiting to hear the big 'C' word come out of the doctors mouth and of course it did. You see this mass was the size of a basketball.
I will never forget the day she went for her annual check up. I was at work and my sister called to tell me that the doctor was pretty sure it was cancer. In that instant I felt such anger and I felt helpless. I knew there was nothing I could do for her except pray for her and be there for her. If you know my mother you know that she is such a wonderful person and strong willed at that! I knew that she would fight this to the bitter end! In fact that is what she told me.
I believe I got a little selfish with the whole situation. I begged and pleaded with God that He just couldn't have her, Not yet!! I was getting married in three months and she just had to be there. I had not had any kids and she needed to see my kids! There are too many things I needed her for! Me, Me, Me...........
It took me a while to except that it was in 'HIS' hands!
Yes, she had cancer. Yes, I knew she would have to go through chemo. Yes, I knew her hair would fall out. Yes, I knew that this would be so hard on her. But my Mother is a fighter. My mother WILL defeat this!
Although she had her good and bad days, and yes her hair fell out,(When we went to look for a wig for her I couldn't even watch her try them on! She still had hair! She didn't need a wig!) she chose not to complain. I rarely heard her say anything at all about any ailments that she might have had! This is my Mother! Strong to the core! Not afraid of the big 'C' word! FEARLESS!
So with that said, she was at my wedding. She has seen my precious son.
My Mother has been cancer free for five years this month!
We are still looking for a cure. If you haven't been checked, GET CHECKED! It could save your life!
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